What?!?!

Yaay a total solar eclipse in Spain in 2026!!! Said me in 2025. Wow. We have a motorhome now we can 100% get the best spot to observe it. My telescope is finally going to be put to good use! Let’s prepare, let’s dream, let’s get excited.

Oh shit my father has strokes. Shit my mother is crying. We struggle. The situation is very difficult physically and mentally.

I have pain. Why I have abdominal pain for so long? Doctors can’t find anything wrong with me? Is it an obscure disease? Why do I take painkillers now?! Because it hurts..

Hello! Said my sister.
What?
I have this problem and looks bad.
Ok let’s go check. Now let’s go wait for weeks for a result while we are stressed.

Oh my parents are better. My father is stable.

Riiinggg! My girlfriend is calling.
How are you? She said.
Not too well, but I miss you. Can’t wait for you to come back from your wonderful hike in Iceland so I can take my mind off of problems.
I’m back! I cheated on you and I want to break up with you.
Whaaaat?!?!

I have less abdominal pain. Uh great.
I have a lot emotional pain. I feel like dying.
My sister is bleeding. Fuck go to the ER.
My father has another stroke.
What do we do?!

My telescope rings.
Whaaat?
I can’t work. I broke.
A week before the eclipse?
Yes.
Fuck!

Riiingggg!!!
Whaaaaat??
Is Tortua, the motorhome.
What now?
I have solar panels and they need certified. I cannot drive without that.
Fuck. Ok 200 euros. Certified.
Didn’t work!
Whhhhhy?
You need to send those papers somewhere else. Take weeks to solve.
But the eclipse is in a week and we planned for a year now….we drive there…
I know….

Fuuuuuuck.

You got mail.
ye..?!
We noticed you like hospitals. You have 3 medical appointments this month for your abdominal pain. And your sister has some too. You go together, is hospital fun and medical results bonanza. Good luck.
Fuck.

You got mail.
What now?
Your father may need an expensive medical procedure to not have strokes. He likes strokes, he has many. Can cost thousands of euros. Do you have energy to go to Romania to help your mom?! Do you have money?!

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Well…fuck. What is this life ha?! Why so many bad things happening?

The Eclipse should have been a wonderful time I spend together with Sasha and Tortuga, meet with our best friends, observe a rare event. Now I lost Sasha, I lost Tortuga, I lost my hope and trust in people, and I hope I won’t lose my father.

I swallow trying not to vomit still.

I try to find solutions. We try. We are still here.

But maybe is just a stupid dream. That would make a lot more sense.